I had a nightmare Last Night…

Last Night I had a nightmare.
I woke up sweating, screaming,
Kicking at my sheets. My face pale
And creased with horrifying
Confusion. Why didn’t I say no?
Why didn’t he know?

“It’s not my fault, It’s not my fault.”
I repeat over and over, but
The men at church don’t call it sexual assault.
“You should’ve just kept you legs shut!”
I should’ve said no,
Why didn’t he know?